So it would seem that this work schedule makes for lousy writing time

[Jamie Fenton]

I know it sounds like a lame ass excuse, however, with the way things have been going, I just haven't felt the motivation to write. Like some of you lack motivation to work out ( as do I ), my writing requires me to feel inspired to share and be creative. The workload is crazy, I am always away from home lately, and its probably a good thing, I have to get things back in order at my house.

I have still been smoke free, with many times being tempted to start again, i.e... weight gain, stress, lack of sleep, boredom on the road, just numerous reasons why I could start again, but I will not give in. You see, winning the fight to quit, taught me something, I can overcome anything if I try hard enough. For years I heard these words, but could never believe in them. Lately, I have restored hope in so many areas of my life, and like all things, in time they will fall into place and I will be better for all of trials and tribulations.

There is one thing I do find a little amusing so to speak. Why is it I can kick one habit, only to replace it with another? It seems as of late, that I am hooked on the internet. Whether it be YouTube, Facebook, Joe Cartoon, or any other form of self entertainment. I just have a hard time walking away from the damn laptop some days. I know this is just another hurdle, but, it almost seems disturbing how one person can spend so much time on the computer and do nothing but waste time? do any of you know what I am getting at? Do you ever feel like you have just wasted an entire day looking at videos or pictures? What ever happened to getting outdside and doing something constructive with our time? What about those days when all we did was fish, or swim in the summer? How did I ever let my job take control of my life? I understand I need to work to pay the bills and get shit in order, but really...do I need to reliquish all my free time to the internet or work? I am sick and tired of feeling like my job is the only thing in my life, its not. I desire a social environment, I need some for of stimulation, and being in this truck day after day is really wearing thin.

I had the opportunity at the end of June to go to our families cottage, as short lived as that was, I was in heaven. I truly missed the tranquility if that place. I think we all just need to take a step back from the everyday and take a good hard look around us, evaluate where we are...ask ourselves.."are we happy?"..I'm willing to bet most of us out there desire some form of change in our lives. I think if all we ever did was work our fingers to the bone, we would surely die of boredom. No matter the form of stimulation, whether it be biking, motorcycling, fishing, playing cards, long walks, swimming..we all need to feel alive.

So there youhave it people, it aint much, but its worth the thought, tell me, do you feel like you don't have enough 'ME' time? Do you feel like the man has got ya down? Do you feel like ripping a new hole in the govt's ass? Well I do, I want time to enjoy my life, not always work to keep an every changing and an ever growing more corrupt gov't in power..we are what makes this devine country work, we keep it moving, the little guys, the everyday hard worker, stay at home moms, single parents, we all deserve what the have, we work our asses off for it. I for one, will say this, I do what I have to do to makes ends meet, but if in the end, I am not happy with not having any type of life...I WILL CHANGE IT...think about people...what do you think? Give me some feedback...

Peace and ride on

Jamie